Food aversions and no pimples means I’m pregnant

I’ve gone off my favourite food group – pizza! :(
I’m still off food in general but I have almost a whole pizza here that before-bean I would have scoffed all bar 1 or 2 slices.

We’ve been talking about cars.. mine in particular. Wondering if the excel can handle a car seat, pram, and porta cot or is it too small? I’d love an auto station wagon because it would be super useful when we’re on the farm too. But I guess we’ll just have to wait and see where we’re at closer to the time. Rang an obstetricians office today who delivers at Camperdown but she’s booked up… *sigh*. Aunty Ann didnt have any names either but she’ll ask around. Nonetheless its back to the GP next week for bloods and maybe he’s got some recs.

OK.. lots to report now. have told plenty of people over the weekend. Told Mum and Dad on Saturday morning. Mum was screaming excitably and Dad said he should buy more kids books from the travelling book guy. Told Christine at Woy Woy, a friend of Mum’s. And then told Leone, (another friend of Mum’s) who then told the other 7 or 8 people at the lunch (total strangers). Leone’s already called Mum to see if I’m happy with the news or not. I guess Leone isnt used to my low-key level of excitement. Not to mention the general overwhelming-ness of it all right now. I am excited about being able to buy all that baby stuf.. trying out prams and things like that.. but it will be while before there’s any sense in buying anything. Also i broke out the waterworks on Saturday night when we were having dinner with Mum and Dad. Not for any real reason..let’s just blame it on “overwhelming”, shall we? It’s bound to happen another gazillion times yet so it doesnt really bother me. I like the word gazillion.. by the way.

So anyway… told Gwen, Peter, and Boo on Sunday. They’re all excited too. Boo’s gonna suss out the baby gear at Toys ‘r’ Us. Had dinner last night with Bindy, Dan, Keda, and Sanj .. that was good. Finally told them about the news. We spent most of the evening talking about names. Keda has decided on Kristen for a girl, and Tom for a boy. I’ll have to come back to this entry later, feeling a bit spaced out right now.

Not much action here in magic bean land. No m/s, appetite is returning slowly, getting more night sleep and less naps required. Had a bit of a spotting scare last Friday but it was only a tiny amount and stopped pretty quickly. Went to Carolyn’s 30th birthday party on that Friday night and kept quiet about the pg news. Was tempted to tell Kim but I’ll wait til next week or so.
We’ve been talking a bit about names… Of course I’m sure the bean is a boy. Don’t know why really, it’s just a guestimate. But in the event that it is a boy we like Fraser and Ben as first names. Don’t know about girl’s names.. I like Jasmine. I did like Maya there for a while but I’ve gone off that.
I was pretty keen on keeping the gender a surprise but I’m warming to the idea of finding out early. I think it might help with any potential bonding issues. At least that’s one theory.
I’ve also started my “Welcome Little One” cross stitch that I bought a year ago and stuck in a drawer straight away. I’ve got $11 gift vouvher to spend at Dymocks so I think i’ll put it towards a copy of Robin Barker’s “Baby Love” book.. would be good to get some ideas on what to do with the bean once it’s born.

Had a strange dream last night. Dreamt that I was lactating and breastfeeding a 3 or 4 year old child who I’d adopted, or was looking after. He said he didnt like the taste of it coz it was too acidic. Talk about weird.
Been feeling OK-ish. A little off colour but not really sick. Getting plenty of sleep at night now, thankfully. Still getting those lower back cramps that test my pain threshold. Not that they are really bad but it is quite an intense dull ache. But it does go away after a bit so it’s not all bad. Mornings are really disagreeing with me. I find it hard to crawl out of bed for 7am shifts. Dont know whether its a combination of winter and general pregnancy tiredness or what. It seems like Im hungry ALL the time but holding back on my usual fancy of Burger Rings, Twisties, etc limits my snacky foods.. especially as I dont like fruit that much. Every now and then I wonder how long we’ll manage with a baby in a 1 bedroom apartment and if we’ll be able to afford to build our place, or even rent a bigger place. But I think I’m prepared to just wait and see. I do think things happen for a reason and I’m sure we wont be struggling very hard for very long. This weekend is our milestone for telling a few people. Parents, close friends – Bindy, Keda, Monica.
I read the parental leave policy at work and have discovered that it 8 weeks paid and 52 weeks unpaid.. not the 2 years as I originally thought. Bummer. It may not matter that much though as I dontk now what our plans are about working and moving house etc. Thats another wait and see. One thing at a time these days. First thing is just trying to be a healthy incubator for the “magic bean”.

I realise I havent explained where the name Magic Bean came from. Well, given we only “did it” once that month because AF went for something like 3 weeks it really was quite a miraculous event. Especially after having tried unsuccessfully for a year.

Went shopping yesterday but food in general is really turning me off so I hardly bought any groceries. Matt will have to come with me next time. Walked through KMart and got all misty eyed at the baby gear. It’s nice to have a legitimate reason to look at it. Not that I’d *shop* at the KMart at Marrickville though coz it’s crap! Still freaking out about the whole thing. Matt’s cool as a cucumber about it all though. An epidural is the answer to the pain of childbirth fear.. and he told me he will help with everything – even shopping and cooking. It was nice to hear that second thing.. buti t’s such a major life change I cant help but wonder how we’ll cope. These babies dont come with a training manual, sadly. I’ll just have to keep visualising myself as a calm and confident mother with a brood of happy, contented kids and a happy husband! What if we both go stircrazy when we realise we cant give the screaming pink thing back? Well, we’ve only known about it for a few days and no doubt we’ll get used to the idea. Having trouble getting to sleep at night because I lay awake thinking about it all, but I do like the afternoon naps I’ve been getting.
I’ll have to talk to AUnty Ann about hospitals and private v public. Will call her after I’ve told Mum the news.

We to a local GP today. He was great. Confirmed the pg with another urine test and gave me a due date of 14/2/2004 but I reckon it will most likely be early March as we conceived 28th May.
Doc said to come back in a couple of weeks for blood tests etc and in the meantime make a decision about which hospital and public or private. I was thinking public at Randwick but I’m starting to think private at Camperdown as they have that whole new modern section with lovely big baths and stuff like that. Nonetheless I will call a few Obs and see what the delivery fees are before deciding.
Didnt get around to calling Dr G today so I will do that tomorrow and I’ll cancel the gyno that he was going to refer me to.
Confirmed that the cramps are normal unless spotting happens as well. They should settle down soon enough. He gave me a brochure of all the do’s and dont’s.

I thought it would be a long time before I’d get to start this diary. Not so. Exactly 12 months down the road since starting TTC and ta-da!

I first got an inkling on Friday 6th June that it was worth testing as I still had sore nips.. these usually go away before AF. My temp was also still up around the post O temp. So I bought a couple of Crystal Clear pee sticks and threw them in the cupboard to test with the next morning.

Come 6am Saturday morning I tested and got 2 lines! I didnt read the test properly though and thought the test line was quite feint…..however it was the control line that was feint. Anyway I woke Matt up and told him. I decided though that we shouldnt get too excited until I test again on Monday morning. We tried to get back to sleep. I dont think it worked too well for me. I didnt have much of an apetite over the weekend..not sure if that was a symptom or related to having just come off some overnight shifts.

I’ve been getting cramps still.. apparently this is common and unless is accompanied by some other worrisome symptom then not to worry. Boobs are feeling a bit heavier tonight and sore. No other real symptoms.

So the plan tomorrow is to call my long time family GP.. the one that frustrated me so much by dragging the chain on the fertility investigations… tell him I’m pregnant and not to bother with the gyno referral. I also need to find a local GP because I can’t be arsed going all the way over to Gladesville to see him. Should be able to get all my previous tests sent across. Need to ring the health insurance to find out the costs of private and whether it may be better just going public. But I like the look of Royal Women’s Hospital at Randwick and its highly recommended.